by Elisabeth | Dec 2, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery, Relationships
I’ve spent my life on defense. Every decision I have made was to avoid some bad thing. I’ve rarely made decisions for a better, fun or authentic life. That was a luxury I didn’t feel I had. I chose the safest route. I chose the approach that avoided risk. Why? ...
by Elisabeth | Oct 28, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
I have had a hell of a week. I packed up our belongings while throwing half of them away, loaded the other half in a POD, put 6 months of essentials in a rental SUV (quite a big one), and drove 12 hours to a furnished house I had never seen before (other than the...
by Elisabeth | Aug 26, 2020 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Relationships
I grew up in an environment with one very clear message: who I am and what I believe does not matter. My opinions and emotions about my experiences were not welcome. My desires and plans in the world were unacceptable. I was trained from an early age to be...
by Elisabeth | Aug 12, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
It has been many years since I went “no contact” with my family. I have not regretted it. That doesn’t mean I have never felt an urge from my love seeker or karma kid to reengage. There is always a slight feeling that maybe, just maybe, the next time, they will do...
by Elisabeth | Jul 22, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Relationships
When we are born into an abusive family, we are born into a war we didn’t know we were fighting. We also don’t know how to fight it. We were never given the weapons to fight this war. But the attacks on us start the minute we are born. I am not suggesting we are...
