I Have the Power Now

I Have the Power Now

I’ve spent my life on defense.  Every decision I have made was to avoid some bad thing.  I’ve rarely made decisions for a better, fun or authentic life.  That was a luxury I didn’t feel I had.  I chose the safest route.  I chose the approach that avoided risk.  Why? ...
The Myth of Protection

The Myth of Protection

It’s been a little more than two weeks since the big move and my inner conversation has been intense.  I definitely moved here to help with calming my inner system, but I knew the initial response would be anything but calm.  So this isn’t very surprising.  Even the...
Where Is the Help?

Where Is the Help?

I grew up in a world where help came in two forms.  It was non-existent. Or it was a betrayal disguised as help.  My abusers made it clear that I was not going to find help.  Each time I tried to find help, it was thwarted.  Each time I had optimism, that optimism...