I’m Done

I’m Done

With this global crisis of epic proportions, it is not surprising how much my freedom fighters are triggered right now.  My controller keeps trying to take over and spin my mind on every possible problem that could come from this crisis.  Not helpful.  They are...
A Message from the Freedom Fighters

A Message from the Freedom Fighters

Since very early in my life, I have had to live in survival mode.  That means, my controller was fully in charge.  They made all the decisions in my life and they were all made from a fear-based view of the world.  All my decisions were safe decisions.  I needed to...
In Defense of Anger

In Defense of Anger

We live in an anger-hating world.  This is not surprising.  Anger has been labeled as dangerous.  It has been labeled as dangerous by angry people.  They know deep down inside that their anger drives them to do bad things, to treat people in bad ways.  They know they...
The Convenient Solution

The Convenient Solution

I watched Troop Zero the other night.  At the end, I cried and cried.  I cried more than I normally do.  I’m not a crier.  I never felt safe enough to cry.  I did love the story.  It was a great movie.  The main character was a little girl in a very difficult...
Reigniting Joy

Reigniting Joy

My trauma led me to understand emotions in a one-dimensional way: “bad”.  They do come in two forms of “bad” though.  There are emotions that are a bit uncomfortable, but tolerable.  I can power through them and still function even if I am exhausted at the end of the...