by Elisabeth | Sep 16, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery, Relationships
We are living in a scary time. It is hard for everyone. But after childhood trauma, it can paralyze us. We already have inner parts who are programmed to find the fear in everything. We learned this survival skill at a very young age. Now that the world around us...
by Elisabeth | Aug 26, 2020 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Relationships
I grew up in an environment with one very clear message: who I am and what I believe does not matter. My opinions and emotions about my experiences were not welcome. My desires and plans in the world were unacceptable. I was trained from an early age to be...
by Elisabeth | Aug 12, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
It has been many years since I went “no contact” with my family. I have not regretted it. That doesn’t mean I have never felt an urge from my love seeker or karma kid to reengage. There is always a slight feeling that maybe, just maybe, the next time, they will do...
by Elisabeth | Jul 8, 2020 | Defenders, Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Relationships
I’ve always had this wish to have that circle of friends. You know that amazing group of friends we see in all the movies and commercials where they eat together, vacation together and are unconditionally supportive of each other even when they make mistakes. I’ll...
by Elisabeth | Jun 24, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
The futility has been sneaking in over this past week. It has been building just outside of my conscious awareness. This is what futility does. It doesn’t want to be noticed. It reminds me of the frog in the water as it heats up. It doesn’t know what’s happening...
by Elisabeth | Jun 17, 2020 | Dissociation, Recovery, Relationships
I decided to go no-contact with my family many years ago. It wasn’t a flippant decision. It wasn’t to punish my parents. It wasn’t any of those stereotypes about no-contact decisions. Those come from people who are either jealous of our freedom or have done the...
