by Elisabeth | Mar 11, 2020 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery
Since very early in my life, I have had to live in survival mode. That means, my controller was fully in charge. They made all the decisions in my life and they were all made from a fear-based view of the world. All my decisions were safe decisions. I needed to...
by Elisabeth | Mar 4, 2020 | Defenders, Freedom Fighters, Recovery
We live in an anger-hating world. This is not surprising. Anger has been labeled as dangerous. It has been labeled as dangerous by angry people. They know deep down inside that their anger drives them to do bad things, to treat people in bad ways. They know they...
by Elisabeth | Feb 19, 2020 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Trauma In Society
I watched Troop Zero the other night. At the end, I cried and cried. I cried more than I normally do. I’m not a crier. I never felt safe enough to cry. I did love the story. It was a great movie. The main character was a little girl in a very difficult...
by Elisabeth | Jan 29, 2020 | Defenders, Freedom Fighters, Inner Children, Recovery
My trauma led me to understand emotions in a one-dimensional way: “bad”. They do come in two forms of “bad” though. There are emotions that are a bit uncomfortable, but tolerable. I can power through them and still function even if I am exhausted at the end of the...
by Elisabeth | Dec 18, 2019 | Defenders, Dissociation, Freedom Fighters, Inner Children
I’m tired today. I don’t know if it’s lack-of-sleep tired or soul-is-sick-of-everything tired or dissociated tired. Honestly, it would be easy to figure out if it is the latter. All I would have to do is ground, but my controller doesn’t want to. So that’s...
by Elisabeth | Oct 16, 2019 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Trauma In Society
Photo credited to Dave Parrish Photography I was inspired this weekend. When you hear what I was doing, it won’t be surprising. This weekend was my favorite weekend of the year in Richmond, Virginia. We hold a festival which is truly spectacular. The Richmond Folk...
