Wide Open

Wide Open

I have always loved to travel.  There are a million reasons for that.  The most obvious is escapism.  I have been aware of my desire for escape for quite some time.  Traveling gives me a feeling of being safe.  Nobody knows me.  My abusers are far away.  My daily...
My 7 Favorite Defenses

My 7 Favorite Defenses

Hello everyone. This is the Inner Defender here. I sometimes go by Beth, but defender, protector and all sorts of relatively derogatory names have been used. Some days I mind. Some days I don’t. I like to keep it as inconsistent as possible. That really gets under...
A Different Inner Conversation

A Different Inner Conversation

For the past few days, I have been stuck. I know you know what I mean. “Stuck” is one of the most common descriptors I get from other survivors about their journey when they email me for help. I know I was stuck because I received half of a memory and then it stopped...
The Parts I Struggle to Love

The Parts I Struggle to Love

I often mention the importance of self love and unconditional acceptance of all our parts. But I will be the first admit that not all parts are easy to love and accept. Sometimes I ignore a part because it makes my stomach crawl to consider I might embody those...
Changing My Mind

Changing My Mind

The Hardest Part of the Journey For a long time, I thought the hardest part about trauma recovery was allowing the expression of past emotions. I fought and defended against them for most of my adult life in an attempt to avoid the inevitable. But once I allowed the...