by Elisabeth | Mar 30, 2016 | Recovery
I have always loved to travel. There are a million reasons for that. The most obvious is escapism. I have been aware of my desire for escape for quite some time. Traveling gives me a feeling of being safe. Nobody knows me. My abusers are far away. My daily...
by Elisabeth | Mar 2, 2016 | Defenders, Dissociation, Memory Repression
Hello everyone. This is the Inner Defender here. I sometimes go by Beth, but defender, protector and all sorts of relatively derogatory names have been used. Some days I mind. Some days I don’t. I like to keep it as inconsistent as possible. That really gets under...
by Elisabeth | Feb 17, 2016 | Defenders, Memory Repression
For the past few days, I have been stuck. I know you know what I mean. “Stuck” is one of the most common descriptors I get from other survivors about their journey when they email me for help. I know I was stuck because I received half of a memory and then it stopped...
by Elisabeth | Jan 13, 2016 | Defenders, Inner Children
I often mention the importance of self love and unconditional acceptance of all our parts. But I will be the first admit that not all parts are easy to love and accept. Sometimes I ignore a part because it makes my stomach crawl to consider I might embody those...
by Elisabeth | Dec 2, 2015 | Defenders, Relationships
The Hardest Part of the Journey For a long time, I thought the hardest part about trauma recovery was allowing the expression of past emotions. I fought and defended against them for most of my adult life in an attempt to avoid the inevitable. But once I allowed the...