by Elisabeth | Sep 6, 2017 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
One of the most frustrating aspects of trauma recovery is the constant feeling we are torn in multiple directions. It renders decision-making almost impossible. And it feels like we are crazy. As a matter of a fact, many people believe that holding two opposing...
by Elisabeth | Mar 1, 2017 | Memory Repression, Recovery
If there is one thing I have seen as a common thread to a childhood of trauma, it is the invalidation of everything we believe to be true. Our needs aren’t validated or met. Our emotions are not validated. They are touted as problematic. Our memories are not...
by Elisabeth | Feb 15, 2017 | Dissociation, Recovery
The impacts of my traumatic childhood cannot be measured. They are too vast and far-reaching for me to classify, categorize or otherwise explain. That said, I do try. My controller hasn’t given up on the idea that I can define it. This blog exists because of my...
by Elisabeth | Sep 7, 2016 | Defenders
Lately, I have been inundated with confusion. This is normally a sign that I am considering change. But I am not considering change in my conscious mind. I don’t understand it in my conscious mind. I am not in charge of it. It is something happening on an...
by Elisabeth | Jul 13, 2016 | Defenders, Recovery
“Maybe if they die, I won’t feel so guilty for speaking up. Maybe they will apologize on their death bed. Maybe they will finally say the right thing. Maybe I will find a way to make everyone stop fighting. I’ll finally be the peacemaker I wanted to be. I don’t want...
