Waiting to Collapse

Waiting to Collapse

I love the Olympics.  Other than the World Cup, it is the only sporting event I watch.  I am fascinated by international sporting events.  I think we should resolve all of our conflicts in this manner.  Of course, we would have to even the playing field with some...
You Owe Me

You Owe Me

When I was growing up, there were many phrases I didn’t want to hear. “Wait until your father gets home.” “Don’t make things up.” “You made another mistake.” In a normal family, these statements might be bad (and certainly not good parenting), but not necessarily...
Backing Up the Head with the Heart

Backing Up the Head with the Heart

As a trauma survivor, I have spent the majority of my life in my head.  My body was not a safe place to reside.  It held all the emotions and pain of my childhood.  It held all the reminders of my past trauma.  So I dissociated and stayed in my head.  It was safe in...
The Real Recovery Process

The Real Recovery Process

I often write about trauma recovery as a process or steps.  I do this for many reasons.  First, I have always loved making a confusing thing more understandable.  I think this is a gift that I was supposed to bring to the world in one form or another.  Second, it is a...
I’ll Just Wait

I’ll Just Wait

“Maybe if they die, I won’t feel so guilty for speaking up. Maybe they will apologize on their death bed.  Maybe they will finally say the right thing. Maybe I will find a way to make everyone stop fighting.  I’ll finally be the peacemaker I wanted to be. I don’t want...
The How & The Why

The How & The Why

How? For most of us, the recovery journey starts as a venture in to the world of feeling.  Our poor bodies have been numb for so long, we don’t have any idea what it feels like to feel.  It is like being an infant exploring emotions for the first time.  Of course,...