Heavy Lifting

Heavy Lifting

I went to the grocery store this morning.  I have never liked grocery stores.  I have trauma around food which complicates my shopping experience.  But this morning as I walked down the aisles, I quickly noticed more activity than usual.  The employees were tearing...
Time for Rest

Time for Rest

I have always been a hard worker.  The compliments about my productivity have been endless.  People are always amazed at how much I can get done.  “I wish I had your energy.”  “How do you stay so organized?”  “It is amazing how much you fit into one day.”  They say it...
The Chains of Fear

The Chains of Fear

I have been experiencing an intense inner battle lately.  It is stirring up my system and creating anxiety I haven’t felt for a while.  Don’t get me wrong, it was normal for me to feel this in the past.  I am grateful my anxiety has dissipated in recent years.  But...
A Messy World

A Messy World

Protecting my children has been one of my most important goals over the past 11 years.  I have made it clear to my family and all other abusers that my children are not available to them.  I have eliminated all contact with abusers in our lives.  This required me to...
The War Within

The War Within

One of the most frustrating aspects of trauma recovery is the constant feeling we are torn in multiple directions.  It renders decision-making almost impossible.  And it feels like we are crazy.  As a matter of a fact, many people believe that holding two opposing...