by Elisabeth | Aug 12, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
It has been many years since I went “no contact” with my family. I have not regretted it. That doesn’t mean I have never felt an urge from my love seeker or karma kid to reengage. There is always a slight feeling that maybe, just maybe, the next time, they will do...
by Elisabeth | Jul 22, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Relationships
When we are born into an abusive family, we are born into a war we didn’t know we were fighting. We also don’t know how to fight it. We were never given the weapons to fight this war. But the attacks on us start the minute we are born. I am not suggesting we are...
by Elisabeth | Jul 8, 2020 | Defenders, Freedom Fighters, Recovery, Relationships
I’ve always had this wish to have that circle of friends. You know that amazing group of friends we see in all the movies and commercials where they eat together, vacation together and are unconditionally supportive of each other even when they make mistakes. I’ll...
by Elisabeth | Jun 24, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
The futility has been sneaking in over this past week. It has been building just outside of my conscious awareness. This is what futility does. It doesn’t want to be noticed. It reminds me of the frog in the water as it heats up. It doesn’t know what’s happening...
by Elisabeth | May 20, 2020 | Defenders, Recovery
To the Adult Self, We are coming to you as a committee of defenders with a plea to turn this ship around while there is any hope of a reasonable life. You are a naïve adult self. Maybe you have done too much reading from people who are more skilled at life than...
by Elisabeth | May 13, 2020 | Defenders
Dear Mother, You turned me into a lot of things when I was a child. You projected all your horrible trauma on to me and made me your enemy. In reality, I was simply a child who wanted to be loved. I was your child and I wanted your protection. I wanted to feel...
