by Elisabeth | Oct 28, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
I have had a hell of a week. I packed up our belongings while throwing half of them away, loaded the other half in a POD, put 6 months of essentials in a rental SUV (quite a big one), and drove 12 hours to a furnished house I had never seen before (other than the...
by Elisabeth | Aug 12, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
It has been many years since I went “no contact” with my family. I have not regretted it. That doesn’t mean I have never felt an urge from my love seeker or karma kid to reengage. There is always a slight feeling that maybe, just maybe, the next time, they will do...
by Elisabeth | Mar 11, 2020 | Freedom Fighters, Recovery
Since very early in my life, I have had to live in survival mode. That means, my controller was fully in charge. They made all the decisions in my life and they were all made from a fear-based view of the world. All my decisions were safe decisions. I needed to...
by Elisabeth | Dec 6, 2017 | Defenders, Parenting
Powerlessness is one of the most damaging emotions coming from a childhood of complex trauma. It is the foundation of depression. It keeps us paralyzed. And if we don’t recognize it for what it is, it can lead to suicidal ideation and even suicide attempts. The...
