My Kids Are Watching

My Kids Are Watching

When my children were born, I knew that I would dedicate my life to helping them be safe, healthy and happy.  I wanted my children to have a very different childhood than mine.  I was willing to sacrifice anything for them.  At the time, I didn’t realize that meant my...
Powerless Parenting

Powerless Parenting

Powerlessness is one of the most damaging emotions coming from a childhood of complex trauma.  It is the foundation of depression.  It keeps us paralyzed.  And if we don’t recognize it for what it is, it can lead to suicidal ideation and even suicide attempts.  The...
I’ve Got This

I’ve Got This

I’ve hit a creative wall.  This is not unusual.  I have times when my controller pushes through something with the mind because the mean kid or inner rebel has shut down my ability to do anything useful.  It hits me when I decide to create a new program or create...
Expendable

Expendable

Over the past few years, I have come to understand I have lived an expendable life.  Before you lecture me, I want to be clear that I don’t believe my life has been for nothing.  I mean I have lived a life that was expendable to others.  The people in my childhood saw...
Commit to You

Commit to You

During the past few weeks, I have experienced several instances of “social commitments gone wrong”.  Plans I made with others fell through (or almost did) and it wasn’t because of me.  And based on my reaction, I can sense that at least one inner part isn’t handling...