by Elisabeth | Sep 16, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery, Relationships
We are living in a scary time. It is hard for everyone. But after childhood trauma, it can paralyze us. We already have inner parts who are programmed to find the fear in everything. We learned this survival skill at a very young age. Now that the world around us...
by Elisabeth | Aug 12, 2020 | Defenders, Dissociation, Recovery
It has been many years since I went “no contact” with my family. I have not regretted it. That doesn’t mean I have never felt an urge from my love seeker or karma kid to reengage. There is always a slight feeling that maybe, just maybe, the next time, they will do...
by Elisabeth | May 6, 2020 | Parenting, Recovery, Relationships
Dear Mother, Another American Mother’s Day is approaching and I am still unraveling the web of contracts you spent my entire life trying to weave. I can’t even imagine how much energy and time you spent attempting to limit my life. Seriously, people have used that...
by Elisabeth | Apr 29, 2020 | Defenders, Inner Children, Parenting, Recovery, Relationships
As you already know, this is a weird time. In some ways, this pandemic has paralyzed me. It has been difficult to get my normal tasks done. And it has been borderline impossible to get new things done. Unfortunately, it has coincided with the need to get some new...
by Elisabeth | Dec 18, 2019 | Defenders, Dissociation, Freedom Fighters, Inner Children
I’m tired today. I don’t know if it’s lack-of-sleep tired or soul-is-sick-of-everything tired or dissociated tired. Honestly, it would be easy to figure out if it is the latter. All I would have to do is ground, but my controller doesn’t want to. So that’s...
