For the past four months, I’ve been carrying out a methodical plan to leave the United States and live in another country. I have struggled with how to announce this because I didn’t want any opposition to throw me off my course. I saw the writing on the wall instantly, too early for most people. I have always specialized in spotting patterns, so I saw these from the first day. I woke up on November 6th at 3 AM and booked passport appointments for my kids. By March, I had applied for visas. My kids graduated at the end of May and we left three days later. Since then, I have been settling into a new life and figuring out my next move, mostly how I want to communicate with my followers going forward. Honestly, this is still a work in progress.
I worried about how this would be received for many reasons. First, I have been operating under the belief that as a trauma coach, it is not my job to instill additional fear in the people who follow me. That may be true, but it has also felt wrong to me to hold back a huge aspect of my truth. Second, I know that many people will see this as a political decision. I do try to remain relatively neutral in my posts because people on all sides of the political spectrum are traumatized. Third, I have wrestled with my own beliefs around leaving the United States. Does this make me un-American? As a firm believer in most of the constitution, I don’t think it does. Does this highlight my privilege as a white person? Yes. My ancestors created this mess and are responsible for this regime. Yet, I get to leave while so many don’t have the resources (or the type of job) that allows for it.
That said, I have reasons for leaving. I’ll start with the more obvious reasons. I am a single mother with adult children who have literally just come of age. As a single mother, it is not lost on me that my financial well-being will be under attack. Current leadership has discussed limiting women’s legal rights to open bank accounts, vote, claim head of household on taxes and even hold a job. A high proportion of people losing jobs right now are women, in particular black women. It is obvious that this regime wants women in a caretaker role and they aren’t shy about it. I decided a long time ago that I would not marry and I would not work for another person. For both these reasons, I am not safe from this regime while I live in the U.S. I also have a business where I discuss healing from trauma. This could be seen as resistance to people who are committed to controlling others by promoting fear and instilling frequent traumas. Since I can’t possibly stop this work, I won’t be safe in the U.S. My children also exhibit many characteristics not supported by this regime. My children are of draft age. My children are outspoken about their highly tolerant views. They are highly intelligent. They explore. They are free thinkers. And I refuse to ask them to be anything else.
After all that, I might surprise you by stating these are not the main reasons I left. The main reason is much more disturbing. It is clear that our leader is a pedophile. He speaks like a pedophile. He acts like a pedophile. Most of the people who work for him are pedophiles. Just look at the people on that list. Is it true that liberal people are on that list? Yes. Should they also be reviled? Yes. I do believe the coverup will eventually die on the vine, but it will be too late for America in its current form. Nothing will be done about it. This means that our country will be run by pedophiles. Not surprisingly, whoever is running the country has the power.
This brings me to my personal traumas and my pedophilic family. The only reason my family hasn’t been able to be more open in their oppression of me is the disgust we generally carry of pedophilia. It has kept these people in the shadows. That said, the richer and whiter the pedophiles, the less they have to be concerned. I have experienced this first hand. If you have high-level contacts in law, politics, medicine, media, you can suppress the general knowledge of the crimes you are committing but being outed as a pedophile has been too big of a risk. I’m not sure that will remain the case for much longer. I do believe that a pedophilic leader will bring about an emboldened pedophilic community.
My family has been systematically stalking, betraying and destroying me for 53 years now. They have attacked me on all fronts. It isn’t just my family members. It is everyone in the community who enables them. It is the pimps they have hired. It is the powerful people they have contracts with. It is most organizations that I have come in contact with. All it takes is money. We can see that with the famous files. With enough money, and a few sporadic and unexplained murders, anything is possible. I have been tortured by my family and their flying monkeys for my entire life. They have attempted to ruin every job and every relationship. They have attempted to destroy me financially. This business is partially a response to them sabotaging all my jobs. I had to cut ties with anyone they could influence. They have injected stress in my most peaceful moments. They have never let me establish a home base of any kind. By home, I mean the figurative home, where home is peace and comfort. They have always seen me as a flight risk. I have attempted to run often, but my dissociative actions would always give me away. My obsession with foreign travel made them excessively nervous. They know my goal is to get away. They have always tried to prevent it.
With a pedophilic leader and a pedophilic family, I knew I had only one choice. I had to leave. I understand that many people are not in my situation, but I also understand that many people are. It is scary to uproot your entire life (two kids, three cats, six suitcases) and go to a foreign place, but it has been a good decision for me. My survival skills are working well for me. I have forgotten how quickly I can adapt. I can figure anything out if I have enough time and creativity. This certainly wasn’t my plan for 2025. If I’m honest, I am mad as hell about being sidelined from working on my business to which I am deeply devoted. The podcast was put on hold (but not forever). I’m mad that I spent years recovering memories and stopping my dissociation so I could get away from my family, only to have a pedophile destroy the country I love. I am mad that my kids are just trying to launch, but they had to start over in a new country. That said, I’m not mad at my new-found ability to follow my intuition and create safety for my little family.
Wherever you are, I hope you are safe. As humans, we deserve safety. It should be an inalienable right. We need safety to heal. When powerful people disrupt safety and create chaos through repetitive traumas to keep us from healing, it is a true act of resistance and defiance to find our safety. As I mentioned earlier, it is also an act of privilege. I intend to use that privilege to bring more of my message to the world from what I hope is a safer place with less ongoing trauma from my stalker family or billionaire pedophiles. I do believe this is the point of privilege. This is how it is meant to be used. I hope you will continue to follow me as I figure out what my next steps are going to be, including potentially new ways of speaking out and new platforms. My commitment to trauma healing will always remain my priority regardless of the state of the world and the seemingly never-ending trauma cycle we live in. Stay safe and keep hope during this time.
