Dear Inner Parts, We get to make a choice. I know that sounds crazy, but we do. We get to decide between living for others and living for ourselves. It is our choice if we want to do something. We don’t have to wait for permission. We don’t have to avoid visibility. We don’t have to seek approval from others before we do it. We get to live life on our terms for our benefit. We no longer have to live in the jail our abusers locked us in. We have choices. We can do anything we want to do.
Grounded Adult Self
Are you crazy? This world doesn’t work like that. There are rules. There are things that must be done in a certain way and order. You have to pay your dues. People have to approve. You have to climb your way to the top the old-fashioned way. You have to pay your dues and work, work, work. You are talking about cheating. And you are talking about risking it all. Choosing to do something without following the proper protocol will bring failure. You cannot step outside of the box that society has created for you. You must do the right thing. You have to do the right thing. If you do whatever you want, people will be jealous and angry and disapproving. They will cast you out. What will you do when everybody hates you? Live in a real box? Your dream for freedom is nothing but a pipe dream.
You are crazy. You cannot have freedom. You were not born for freedom. You have a role to uphold. You have a responsibility to your family. You don’t get to put yourself first. You don’t get to do what you want. That was established from the beginning. Your family will abandon you and you are nothing without them. And you will be punished by everyone including the universe. You will be put back in your place. The retaliation will be swift and horrific. You will fail because you were meant to fail. You need to play in your space and your space is small. You need to stay out of the spotlight. You need to be as invisible as possible. Know your place. And your place is not freedom.
Don’t listen to these idiots. Do what you want. Live how you want. Don’t let anyone tell you what to do. Stay away from all those people out there who think they have the right solution for you. Do your own thing. Break all the rules. When people tell you that you are wrong, you are probably right. Society is screwed up. Your family is screwed up. Everybody is screwed up. Do whatever you want. And don’t worry about the money either. I’m sure that will work out somehow.
Do what you want, but please don’t involve other people. They can’t be trusted. They are only interested in what is good for them. They don’t have your interest at heart. Just do it on your own. You can do it on your own. You have done everything on your own and there haven’t been any problems that way. You might have to make some sacrifices, but it will be worth it. Keep minding your own business and stay away from others. You can be as free as you want, but only if you avoid others.
If we are going to do this, let’s do it with as much passion and authenticity as possible. Go big or go home. Don’t let the controller censor it. Take a risk. It is time for a revolution. It is time for a new approach. And whatever you do, don’t let others call you crazy. They can root for you to fail, but when you succeed, they will be standing in the wings wondering what happened.
F*** the whole world. They are all f***ed anyway. Screw em all.
I only have one question. Will they love me? Will they finally love me?