The Bad Days

The Bad Days

Like all survivors, I have good days and I have bad days.  Unlike popular opinion regarding emotions and moods, PTSD isn’t always something I can control with my thinking.  My inner parts believe they are living in the past and they are sharing those past emotions...
The Real Recovery Process

The Real Recovery Process

I often write about trauma recovery as a process or steps.  I do this for many reasons.  First, I have always loved making a confusing thing more understandable.  I think this is a gift that I was supposed to bring to the world in one form or another.  Second, it is a...
I’ll Just Wait

I’ll Just Wait

“Maybe if they die, I won’t feel so guilty for speaking up. Maybe they will apologize on their death bed.  Maybe they will finally say the right thing. Maybe I will find a way to make everyone stop fighting.  I’ll finally be the peacemaker I wanted to be. I don’t want...
Repressed Memories Don’t Lie

Repressed Memories Don’t Lie

I make it clear that my recovery journey involves repressed memories.  And honestly, it hasn’t been an easy thing to explain.  Most people can’t fathom how our brain can dissociate to that extent.  Most people can’t understand how we can forget such incredibly...